Missing…school

People Enjoy Colored Leaves Season In KyotoI haven’t really missed school. Not for a second, not even college. And especially not high-school or secondary… It was all a closed chapter in my life. But this year is all different. A couple of weeks ago I was with my mom, walking on the streets of Ploiesti early in the morning. “This feels exactly like the mornings when we left home together, you going to work, me going to school,” I said with a melancholic smile on my face. She was smiling too, remembering it all. Reliving it probably.

Then today, at about noon, while walking by a school, I heard kids laughing and running, I saw the autumn leaves fallng off the tree branches, I could smell the new books and notebooks. I could remember how I felt, challanged to do more. I wanted out, out of the teenage label people had put on me. I wanted to be a grown up, I wanted to start living, I wanted the worries and the adventures.

Now I miss high-school. I miss secondary school. I miss the times when life was a lot less complicated. And as I said, walking by that schoo, I miss the view on the world I had back then. Full of hope and full of dreams. It some how got less colorful as the years passed.

Mission Impossible Group Writing Project Roundup

Joanna Young’s challenge, the Mission Impossible Group Writing Project, managed to inspire me and many others to do something I had never done before. In my particular case, trying to write (and managing I hope) lyrics for a song. Here’s the full list of wonderful people that jumped out of their comfort zone and tried soemthing else, something new, something inspiring. Congratulation everyone!

New Forms

Poetry: A Little Lark from Write a Writing

Tanka: Pink Petal Bokeh Shimmer and a Tanka Experiment by Wonderwebby

I used to enjoy exploring writing this way but like many things, I forgot how much fun playing with words could be. Sharing a poem after so long makes me a little uneasy because like visual art, reading poetry can be subjective, and either really good or really, really bad. I know I will look back on this tanka and wish certain words away. But I’m happy to be posting it anyway, because I had fun writing it Read more…

With friends

My friend Oana showed me a note I had written to her over 4 years ago. It’s written on a page torn from my notebook. And here’s what it says:

“When the talk is good and the feeling is easy and the laughter is light and the memories are many but the time is short, then you know you’re with a friend.”

Still true!

A Perfect Sunday

Lingering in bed, in the aftertaste of passion, warmth and good food. Making an effort to finally get up and have coffee on the terrace. Mine with a little milk, yours with a wee bit more sugar. We’d then shower and change and go out for a while. Walking, hand in hand, breathing in the Sunday air. Empty streets, laziness, quietness, sun rays and the heat.

We’d stop somewhere for a quick bite, watching a lake, any lake in this city. We’d talk about everything and anything, sometimes even noticing what music they’re playing. We’d then make our way home, dragging our feet and taking the afterglow of our lunch thoughts in. We’d stop and kiss, you’d tell me that you love me, I’d tell you the same.

At home, we’d each do our own thing for a little while. You’d be working on some project. I’d be finishing the fifth book in the Sookie Stackhouse series. We’d then drift off in each others arms and wake up later, when it’s cooler. Just in time to enjoy the evening. We’d go over to our friends’ house for dinner. We’d laugh a lot. And come home to make love. Our kind of love. All ready for a new week!

I really believe Sundays should be the best days. Fun, light, shared with the people you love. Not mushy, not sad. They should definitely not feel like the end of a week, but as the foreplay of a new one. Another week of good and bad thrills, of routine and of new tricks. So while I’m waiting for my perfect Sunday to happen, I thought I’d share it with you. Maybe it helps you make yours better :) . I am now chatting with a friend, doing a bit of work, and listening to some pretty awesome music. I’m still lingering in today’s morning. Which might not be just perfect, but it’s pretty damn good!

Mission Im(possible): Lyrics for a song

The strange feeling I experienced the first time I looked into Michael’s eyes has kept haunting me. I’m always in control of my body. Even when I’m passed wasted drunk, I still know exactly what I am doing. It’s harder, true, but I’m the one calling the shots. Feeling I can’t move, can’t speak, feeling someone else taking over my body, my mind just couldn’t really cope with it and kept trying to find an answer.

Thanks to Joanna Young‘s challenge, the Mission Im(possible) Group Writing Project, I found a way to exorcise my “daemon”. I wrote the lyrics for a song called “Mesmerized”. I imagine it to be a rock song. Something like the Queen of the Damned soundtrack, or something like Tea Party. Maybe even Evanescence. But definitely a rock song with oriental influences. So here goes, hope you love it.

P.S. My maker, as in the writer of the novel, has never written song lyrics either :)

Mesmerized

He has frozen your body, feel the trap in his eyes
You are under a spell, you have been mesmerized
Don’t bother to fight it, they are useless, your tries
Cold shivers take over to keep you paralyzed

You cry and you scream and you punch and you fight
But the grip that he’s got’s getting ever so tight
You can’t breathe, you can’t think, there’s no word of delight
And the grip that he’s got’s getting ever so tight

Yet you can’t help but notice the promise of a smile
Let go of your worries, it will all be just fine
And you know he is willing to reach the end of the trial
Throw Nature’s tide over, share a glimpse of divine

You cry and you scream and you punch and you fight
But the grip that he’s got’s getting ever so tight
You can’t breathe, you can’t think, there’s no word of delight
And the grip that he’s got’s getting ever so tight