I am puzzled be people and how they choose to act. It’s so puzzling at times! There’s a constant lack of consistency in their attitude, their words, their tone. Is it too much to ask for less swings? I mean, it’s not like feelings change like that from an hour to the next. It’s not like we want to spend time with someone now, to no longer want it 30 minutes later, to then want it again, if they give us an extra 15 minutes.

I feel it all comes from fear. I’ve been too nice, too friendly, too reveling of how I actually feel. My guard is down, I could get hurt, so why not pull away from it all. Just a short break; act all weird and obnoxious for a few days. Or even less. Then I can resume my formerly pleasant persona!

While I do understand why it happens, how and what to do about it, sometimes I just feel we’re wasting our time with nonsense. As Frank Herbert very well explained in Dune, fear is the mind killer. It also kills our spirit, our ability to hope and to try again.